moments of sensuality
what I saw, felt, tasted, touched, smelled, heard, and enjoyed in February
As I write this, I’m in a slow and sensual process of integrating all that I learned, felt, and experienced at my third 4-day somatic intensive training that I was at just a couple of days ago.
The slowness feels like sitting with the knowing that I am holding a lot of information and transformation in my brain and body right now, and not trying to make meaning out of it or share much about it just yet. I’m giving myself space to let it all land, trusting the ways my body is metabolizing what is moving and being moved in me.
And the sensuality of this process looks like feeling into what feels good in my body as all of this information and transformation settles. Like, rather than focusing on the very heady “OK, I’m learning so much, what do I do with it?” I’m dropping down and into sensation and what my body is needing/asking for. I’ve been drinking a lot of water, sleeping a lot, taking a lot of deep breaths, requesting more hugs from Jonathan, and having some sweet moments with Genji (my dog) since returning.
I know I’m being vague, but that’s where I am in this moment.
As for my moments of sensuality—
You might remember that my intention was to do these ‘moments of sensuality’ each week but I’m realizing that that was an ambitious goal. So, my new intention is to be doing these senses check-ins at the end of each month (at least).
I do these moments of sensuality to both celebrate/remember my capacity to feel, sense, and experience, and also to remind myself of how special it can be to be in this body despite the many challenges I experience in it.
Here’s what delighted my sensual self last month.
I smelled:
The sweet flowers of the guava tree blooming outside my window
Fire smoke
Roasted sweet potatoes
Lavender bath salts
Santal (i.e., myself)